short stories posts revival

Hi, whoever is reading this blog post. I just want to say that i have decided to posts short stories in this blog and if anyone wants to read them. Feel free to do so.

Magical Pictures

Hey anyone who is reading this. I want to write a short story today but since i can't think of anything yet. I will just post pictures of magic and fantasy here.  Enjoy   :)

                                                                  Fairy in Moonlight

 

                                                                Door to Freedom

                                                                   Book of Spells

                                                                     The Tree House

      

Woman In Moonlight

     

The Meadow Princess

Journey Into The Unknown

The Window In The Starry Sky

Disclaimer:All pictures belong to google images webpages. XP

Quiet Desperation(tips)

First of all,if  you ever read this in the future, i just want to share a few lessons for my future self and basically i am just ranting. So bear with me.

1)Lesson is to not let emotions get the best of you. Sure you feel like your heart is gonna break apart and you feel the whole world on your chest like a thousand piles of bricks are suffocating you to death and you want to scream but you are too proud to do so.But you still have to learn not to let those weighing thoughts bring you down.

2)Letting go of guilt is the best policy.Guilt builds up in your chest like a tsunami is gonna come from the small thoughts and waves of guilt everyday. Lets say you have weird dreams about people that you are too embarrassed to say and you feel like you are the only one who knows it. Maybe you should confess to the lord but you feel foolish and disgraceful but you don't know who else to turn to because even your own family are in your dreams and you are afraid that they will find out your thoughts.What Then? Best thing to do in my opinion is to just give yourself a break and confess to the lord and maybe your family in the future.Then forgive yourself about the thoughts that you have about other people and hope for the best.

3)Learn how to mind your own business unless people want to share them with you.
In everyday life, we experience the need to find out what is going on in other people's lives because we find our lives too boring or maybe you are paranoid that people might be talking about you. So you try to see and listen to what other people are saying and see if they are talking about you. Most of the time they are not. But when they are you don't know whether they are saying good or bad stuff about you.In the process you get even more paranoid and end up getting angry. So the best thing to do is to trust that the lord gives you good blessing and that people are not saying bad things about you,especially the things you are trying to hide.Even if they are,so what? You can't do anything about it unless you confront them about it and possibly end up getting into a fight. But that is not what you want. So just trust in the lord and hope that nothing too bad is being spoken of. And mind your own business.

4)Learn how to let go of anger quickly.Whenever you get angry you tend to ponder over your thoughts of why the hell are you so bloody angry in the first place. For example, you find out that you don't get your way and wonder why,why,why? Well turns out pondering over too much reasons when you are emotional only makes you angrier.So sometimes it is just best to feel the emotion,acknowledge it like an old or new friend,whichever is recent to be felt and just tell your self.
I am feeling........because of what happened before a few minutes ago and I am going to let it go and then ask someone what they think of my problem.Is it big or small. Sometimes the biggest problems can actually be small to someone else. So share your thoughts after your emotion is dealt with.

5)Learn how to deal with stress in awkward situations that make you feel uncomfortable.Whenever you are encountered with a situation that is unfamiliar.Lets say meeting new people or being at a social event that makes you feel like running away at any possible chance you get.And then you start to feel stressed because you don't know how to deal with the emotion of fear of change of the anxiety of meeting new people that might make you uncomfortable.You may make weird faces and look down to deal with the situation or ask to go to a toilet nearby if there is one.Best thing,take out your phone and try to look occupied so that people will not talk to you.So that you won't have to deal with the awkwardness of trying to start a conversation.So what do you do then?Well honestly, I still have not figured it out yet but i think the best bet is to look up and smile briefly to whoever is looking at you and if they want to start a conversation with you, just take a deep breath,pluck up your courage,if you want ask lord for courage and try to find common topics with the person and remember that they may feel the same way you do too. You are not alone in this.


These are the lessons that i have for my future self so far.

To Sarah 10 to 20 years later,remember this,don't give up,you are never alone in this world.
Treasure the moments you have because sooner or later you will leave the earth to a better place anyway. And stop making funny faces if you can.   XP

Rainy Days and Boredom

Hi blog,

Guess what? Today is a rainy day and i woke up late.It kind of sucks to do nothing now.

I was planning on going to St John's Island but i woke up late and it was raining.

My sister asked me why on earth i was thinking of going there because it is raining cats and dogs out there.

I got irritated because i felt like, duh i obviously can't  go because i can't make it as it is still raining and the ferry leaves Singapore at like 2pm latest.

Then afterwards i felt guilty because i accidentally snapped at my sister. Now i am like just waiting for lunch and writing down stuff here.

Argh! I am so bored! I don't know what to do.

But anyway my friend's birthday is today. I just found out and realized that i have not gotten her a birthday present yet. Yelp!

I feel super bored because on one hand because i don't know what to do and on the other hand i know that i have to get my butt out the door before i do something but i just feel too lazy and comfortable to get out the door today,even though i desperately need to get out of the house.

I recently plan on writing short stories for fun again but i have no passion or mood to start writing and my confidence in writing is not very high now.My psychologist from IMH encouraged me to start writing down my emotions so that i can express them. Good and Bad ones. So i decided to start doing it now.

I have a confession to make. I think i might have some issues with relationships and stuff. Recently, while doing my internship and Final Year Project, I found out that I have this thing  for attached guys.

I don;t know why but i find them more attractive then single guys.During my FYP, i started to have a crush on this guy named Josh who was in the same lab as me and supposedly he is already dating someone. Then i started to have a crush on my Internship supervisor who was like 30 years old and married and i was like, WTF is wrong with me?Why do i keep crushing more on attached guys rather than single guys.

After my internship, i told myself i needed some serious therapy. But i guess these kind of things just happen. I was too embarrassed to tell my psychologist and my friends about this and honestly, terrified of telling my family about this.

I mean, what would they think if they knew that their own daughter had a crush on a married man about twice her age.I guess during my FYP i got lonely because most of my friends were not there and they are kind of my safety net. 

My Internship was worse, i barely talked to anyone except my sister when i met her for lunch and my future classmate and me were not close at all and barely talked. Except only once in a blue moon.

So i turned to my supervisors for emotional support. I know right, seriously desperate. I mean i talk to my friend sometimes on the phone but i still missed my friends.Ever since then , i have become more isolated from my own friends and family.Feeling more detached than ever. To the point that i am getting more silent everyday and i am afraid that very soon i won't even want to talk anymore.

What if i just got away from all of this and run away?Or just escape from here for a few days or even a day?That's why i want to go to St John's Island.Since i feel so lonely, going there wouldn't be very different and i get to escape from it all. Man i miss the old days when i used to daydream and not be so bloody afraid of everyone and everything.I actually almost had a total breakdown a few times during my internship, i almost really cried then.It was so horrible and i was so embarrassed. I kept telling myself to run away but i never had the guts to actually do it.Plus i felt responsible that i had to go through this hell to get stronger and hopefully one day it would pay off.

I don't know what's wrong with me these past few weeks, i always feel so angry and i feel like crying easily whenever nothing goes my way and people hurt me so easily.

Anyway i think that is all i want to say right now. Maybe i will type more tomorrow.I really hope i can start on writing stories soon. Right now i got no inspiration and confidence to do write short stories.

Maybe i will soon,hopefully. I just feel so tired and want to really rest well, i have not been able to sleep these past few days. I feel like resting my bones and sitting on a dock on a bay,wasting m time.

Ciao,

Sarah

Hi,sarah in the house!!!!
HAHAHA!!!
Well since nobody is ever gonna read this blog.I shall just use this as an outlet for my emotions.
OK!! Good Night!!! That is all.
Ciao.

Back baby!!

Hey people out there. I have been away for a long time because i have been busy with my studies and other social stuff. I am excited to say that i have decided to create a new blog regarding the paranormal and crypto zoology. Hopefully people will be interested in it.  :)  

Well, recently i just completed my first year in my polytechnic. My second semester was intense for me partly because of my studies and partly because of my social group in poly. I am actually quite disappointed with my GPA score because it is way too low. After my second semester i only got 2.2 for my GPA.

I know right.Epic fail.  :(   But oh well nothing i can do about that. It really sucks to feel like the biggest loser on the planet. I am afraid that with my current GPA, i might not get into a university when i graduate.

I only have like two more years left to boost my GPA, and i am afraid i might not have enough time to get a 3.0 even. Man, i hope i can make it.  

Plus, with all the obstacles in my way and so many distractions i am in a load of trouble. I get stressed out easily , which kinda sucks.  

Anyway, i am going to China, Guangzhou soon .  :)   Yay!!

I should be excited , i am . It's this poly exposure, General selective module overseas attachment thing.But, i also feel stressed and nervous about the trip. What if i do something wrong or make a fool out of myself?

Oh well, if  it happens, it happens i guess. I just hope i can make it back in one piece.  

well, i gotta go do other stuff now, like play a game .    Hehe.  ;)   Will  type soon .    

Cheerio people.   =D

Starting school

Hey, here i am again. Just wanted to blog for a while. My school orientation is over and i am going to officially start school soon!  I am definitely a little bit scared but i think i can cope. Hope i can make new friends or something soon because that is the way it is supposed to be i guess. Anyway, i am starting to get used to the school. Although sometimes i feel like i don't belong there. I mean this afternoon i walked out of the school and just realized that  i am going to school with a bunch of people who are wearing home clothes and not uniforms! That's just wierd. Right? Plus, i just realized that some of them are deffinitely not on my level. They seem so at ease. And all i can think is that i am totally freaking out and i don't know what to do! Totally sweating like a pig on my first day. No offense to pigs out there. =)      

Sigh......   what a revelation. I wonder when am i going to start to be a poly student.        


           Oh, this photo shows what i am writing about. Hint: It has meadows in it.                    




 Oh did i forget to mention my mother and father are obsessed with running. Either way they practically want me to jog all the time.   Poor me. =(  

haha. signing off.  Sarah. ;)