Thursday, 3 November 2011
Monday, 5 September 2011
managing
Have not typed for a while , obviously. I am totally trying to study for my exams right now. Sometimes i wish i could just burst out of my skin and become a new person. Lately, i am managing my life. Mainly because nothing much is going on ! ;)
Friday, 12 August 2011
my life on fridays
Here i am blogging. Guess what? every friday i do the same things, watch TV followed by bathing and then i wait for my chinese tuition teacher to come. AND GUESS WHAT? THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I HAVE OFFICIALLY BLOGGED ON MY OWN WITHOUT MOTIVATION. Here i can tell you something. My fridays are boring and i just don't know how to spice it up. Followed by the fact that i am usually the type of person who never finishes her work and whatever she does because she cannot sit still and gets bored and distracted easily. Especially when it comes to schoolwork. I never try to finish anything i do because my mind is always filled with so many useless thoughts that just causes me a migrain all the time.
Yesterday i looked at a countryside potrait hanging on my living room wall and wished that i could climb into the picture anytime to be alone and to relax and hope that no one disturbs me. Sometimes i think i have a twisted mind because i think of all the strangest things and they scare me, ALOT. My dreams are even wierder and scarier most of the times. I really think, deep inside that i am meant for greater things, but i just don't know what i am good in . I am good in science, but really, i just have a good memory and that makes everyone think that i am good in science. I hate to admit this, but i have a low self-esteem. But it does not mean that because of that, i think i am not good in science.
I try to be perfect or at least hope my life is perfect most of the time. There are times when i think that because i read alot of stories and watch a lot of movies, i get good perspectives of other people's feelings(at least that is what my father tells me too). Being able to get other people's perspective of life makes me have mixed emotions whenever i think about life. THESE MAY JUST BE MY SECRETS, EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE NOT VERY INTERESTING TO SOME PEOPLE. I have a lot more thoughts running through my brain but i think that is all i can write for now.
P.S. SOMETIMES I HATE LIFE, SOMETIMES I LOVE LIFE, SOMETIMES I WISH I COULD HAVE MY FRIENDS BACK.
Yesterday i looked at a countryside potrait hanging on my living room wall and wished that i could climb into the picture anytime to be alone and to relax and hope that no one disturbs me. Sometimes i think i have a twisted mind because i think of all the strangest things and they scare me, ALOT. My dreams are even wierder and scarier most of the times. I really think, deep inside that i am meant for greater things, but i just don't know what i am good in . I am good in science, but really, i just have a good memory and that makes everyone think that i am good in science. I hate to admit this, but i have a low self-esteem. But it does not mean that because of that, i think i am not good in science.
I try to be perfect or at least hope my life is perfect most of the time. There are times when i think that because i read alot of stories and watch a lot of movies, i get good perspectives of other people's feelings(at least that is what my father tells me too). Being able to get other people's perspective of life makes me have mixed emotions whenever i think about life. THESE MAY JUST BE MY SECRETS, EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE NOT VERY INTERESTING TO SOME PEOPLE. I have a lot more thoughts running through my brain but i think that is all i can write for now.
P.S. SOMETIMES I HATE LIFE, SOMETIMES I LOVE LIFE, SOMETIMES I WISH I COULD HAVE MY FRIENDS BACK.
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